septic

this is the one week anniversary of my iv removal.

it has been so nice to not have to carry around a backpack.

it has been so nice to be able to play with max.

it has been so nice to get out of the house (even if it is mostly to physical therapy).

it has been so nice to hold gra AND walk around (i hadn't done this since he was born).

it has been so nice to sleep in the same bed as my husband.

but what hasn't been so nice are the incoming medical bills. the thoughts of "what if?" haunt me during the nights when i have trouble sleeping.

the truth is, we will never have the answers. i can only hope that from aug 15, 2011 until the end of this journey, glory will be given to God.

i wanted to post a few pics to remember the seriousness of what it meant to be septic, and to hope that it is one thing that never happens in this family again.

lazy friday morning

it was max's idea to take a picture of us hanging out and watching shows on friday morning. still in amazement that God has blessed me with all 3 of these guys!

back to school

max started back at mdo a few weeks ago, but with all the craziness that's been happening around here, i didn't get any pics. lucky for me, his daddy was willing to snap these a few days ago.

showing off his "bumblebee" (transformers) backpack. he and joey went out on a special daddy/son shopping trip to pick out a new backpack. i must say, this is not what mommy would of gotten, but he is proud of it and that's what counts.

i can't believe how big our 1st born is. he is more precious to me then ever and i love to see his funloving personality. he loves to make us laugh and is a very talented singer. the boy LOVES to sing and really has a good little voice and ear for music. we are excited to see what he does with his gift in the future.

almost 1 month

i cannot believe how much has happend in the last month of our lives. it has crawled at times, and flew by at others, but on friday, we had a really good day as a family (FINALLY)!

we took Gra for his 1 month appointment.

he weighs 9.4 lbs (51%).

he is 21 1/4 inches long (50%).

and his head is 38 cm around (65%)

after his appointment, we took advantage of the weather and stopped at the park to let max play. you can picture it. joey carrying a baby carrier and keeping up with a 2 year old. me, with my walker and anitbiotic iv backpack, trying to find a place to sit where i can watch my boy play and still be comfortable. but by far, the most interesting part was sharing "what happend?" with the moms and grandmas that were also at the park. all i can pray is that my attempt at having a positive attitude was evident and that my faith and trust in God's plan showed as i shared a bit of our last months journey with strangers. joey and i continue to talk about what God is teaching us and even though much remains a mystery, we are just thankful to have a God who loves us enough to teach us things and love us at the same time.

are we done yet?

so the last 3 weeks since graham's birth have been very, ummm, eventful. here's a breakdown:

aug 15- a beautiful boy arrives!

aug 16- we will be in the hospital for at least a week while graham gets antibiotics for group b strep. by 3pm this day kyle can no longer walk due to severe pain in her legs.

aug 17- the pain in kyle's legs has moved to her pelvis. she is using a wheelchair to visit gra for his feedings.

aug 18- an xray confirms that kyle has strained her pubic symphasis. her knee is hurting a bit but it is guessed that is from over compensating due to the pelvic issues.

aug 19,20,21- we settle into a routine at the hospital. gra is doing awesome and kyle is moving like a 90 year old with walker.

aug 22- out early due to good behavior!

aug 23, 24, 25-with help at home, we are making it. max is getting used to being a big brother, gra is nursing great, joey is super helpful, and kyle is trying to balance rest and pain.

aug 26, 27, 28- kyle's knee is giving her more trouble and getting more and more swollen.

aug 29- kyle goes to the ortho. her knee is drained of fluid that is sent off to the lab.

aug 31- the labs show a bacteria is growing so kyle is put on an antibiotic.

sept 1- the antibiotic is not killing the infection. kyle is sent back to denton regional to have a scope put in her knee to get it cleaned out (her 1st surgery ever!)

sept 2- the "plan" is given. we will be in the hospital til tues at least. kyle will be on iv antibiotics another 2 weeks at least after that.

this plan is an answer to prayer as now we know when this might all be over. but it does come with some bad news. kyle will no longer be able to nurse gra and she is sad about this. he was nursing so well (this was a huge struggle with max) and she was so excited about this, but God has a different plan and she is now ready to fight this infection and put all her energy into that. please pray for her to be confident in her decision and to rest in God's plan.

we have been blessed with a beautiful family that is being taken care of. we have been blessed with drs who will work aggressively to kill the infection and get kyle back to normal. we have been blessed with prayers, food, and help from everyone we know. please continue to pray for our beautiful boys and that we will all be home, healthy and together, soon!